Treading water.

I'm here at work.  On time for the first time in I don't know how long.  My goal is to stay at least until 3.  That goal seems beyond reach.  I am anxious, overwhelmed.  I will do my best.  I do not want to disappoint myself.  I have Heidi at 3:30.  I need a session.  I need a rub.  I want to go  home, knit my little heart out, and relax.  I'm so stressed, and again, overwhelmed.  I just don't know what to do with myself.