brittle

i've come to terms that i'm a fragile person, too sensitive for my own good. i think i'm pretty self aware. i'm annoyed at those who aren't.

i used to wallow wallow wallow in a puddle of self pity. i'd like to think i've moved past that. yes, every now and again i fall, and yes, i feel the need to express my frustration by putting feelings as best i can into text. it's just the kind of girl i am. the kind of girl i am NOT is the "poor me" type. i may have been at one point, but over the years i've learned to take responsibility for my actions. i've learned that if something crappy happens to me, i can generally take responsibility for that situation as i played a role in whatever happened in some form or fashion. it's easier that way.. not having anyone else to blame but yourself. of course, this doesn't play out in every circumstance, but i try.

i am absolutely sick of the "poor me" attitude. TAKE SOME GDMF RESPONSIBILITY!!! generally, YOU dictate what happens in your life, good or bad. if you think people shit on you, DON'T ALLOW IT to keep occurring. YOU make the choice to stick with it and expect something different... (the true definition of insanity) if you feel you've been taken advantage of, quit ALLOWING it. it's YOUR fault. YOUR FAULT. YOUR attitude affects every aspect of your life... if you're always going to blame everyone else, prepare to lie in the bed you've made for yourself.