grounding and other things.

one thing I've been working on lately is to find ways to ground myself. my energy is most often in a whirl of thoughts around my head. I've been wanting to find ways to ground this energy, and make it more steady, rather than have said energy in a whirl around my head. I've started by using imagery of plugging an electrical outlet into the base or root chakra. I imagine a warm buzzing feeling enter and my body then I sent these currents downward towards my feet. I feel the currents move down my legs and into my thighs, and I do indeed feel more grounded. I'm also listening to low vibration music and sounds. radiohead and bjork are great for this. I love to feel the bass in the music. it makes my heart thump in rhythm to the beat, or at least that's how it feels.

I'm avoiding work. I feel inadequate and under-trained. I don't want to ask for anymore help today. I don't know when I'm going to feel better about my position here, but I'd like for it to be sooner rather than later. I've become perturbed with this place and with myself in this place. it seems to cycle, and I'm over it.

I thought that writing would provide a much needed outlet. unfortunately, I'm simply frustrated. oh well. that'll be it for now.