quitter.

i quit smoking on may 31, 2011, not including the weak moment i had on monday when i ran to the convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes, subsequently smoked 2 cigarettes, and then threw the pack away. i'm not a very good quitter, of most things. that's an absolute untrue statement. i'm a very good quitter. i can put a book down that i'm more than 2/3 of the way done with to never set eyes on the book again. i'll start a knitting project and will abandon it as my boredom grows. i've walked away from relationships that were supposed to be the most important kind. i'm a good quitter, but so far, i'm not good at quitting smoking. i had a weak moment today and went to a coworker for some reassurance. i was told that quitting this time will be easier than if i start and try to quit again. as i look back on my past with smoking, i realize this is absolutely true. i've quit a few times in the past, almost always with ease. this time is definitely different.

ps, i want you out of my head for good. once and for all. there's no room for you here, and you're most certainly not welcome. kindly see yourself out.