twitchy

i've had this twitch in my left eyelid for the past few days. it's not the quick kind, i would call it a mild blepharospasm. i'm twitching along the outside line of my left upper eyelashes. i'm wondering where i'm vitamin deficient. ironically, i've incidentally re-discovered another HUGE deficiency. it's called - wow, dude. you've seriously got to get that fixed. and so, i've taken beginning steps to fix me, although that does NOT stifle my absolute almost paralyzing fear of not overcoming this obstacle. i've generally had faith in myself and in the people i've sought help from... this is a whole new avenue. as time goes on, i struggle more and more, and the struggle seems to almost consume. i'm just hoping, reallyreally hoping that the new guidance i'm seeking will actually help. i've seen enough doctors, i've don't REALLY doubt that i won't be able to get over this, but i've never felt more afraid of being stuck the way i am and being unable to change when this change is necessary. NECESSARY. oy vey. i'm crossing everything possible.