12/18/12

now that i've found myself here, i don't know what to say.

anxiety has been bleeding through tonight, and my blood has always been slow to clot. 

i want to say "it's unfair..." but who effing cares about fair?  apparently, it's my lesson, and i always seem to find the most difficult way through it.  ugh, i just said that.  yes, i tend to learn the hard way... but i try to think of it as progress at the very least, even if ridiculous.

i'm ashamed enough that i just wrote that, that i'm going to leave it there as a reminder of PERSPECTIVE.
 
more safe to say, i couldn't be luckier... still.  it hurts to hurt, and that's simply the way it is.